Lighthouse

 Image Description: A lighthouse visible in the evening light    The light near my tiny bedroom is always on. Darkness surrounds me, except for the presence of that light. Accompanying me to sleep every night. That is my lighthouse here in Oxford.   I feel as if I am no longer lonely. A subtle desire […]

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I am encountering you

Image Description: A young woman reads by candlelight in a dark room.    Different modes of conversation have entirely different effects. How does one situate continuous daily conversation in the context of artistic research? How does one make the phrase ‘understand others’ accessible and narrow down the word ‘others’? I look to my surrounding friends. […]

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Practising self-care when failing in a PhD scholarship application

Image Description: Person in a robe and facemask against a purple background, confronted by several extended hands   “I am sorry that your PhD scholarship application fails……” Ouch…. another heartbreak, another scholarship failure. How many scholarships have I failed? How many rejections have I got? How many denials have I been facing, so far?   […]

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Slow death

Image Description: a fading potted plant against a painted red background    Didn’t take a good shot of you when I saw you on Thursday. Met you in Sainsbury’s, Enchanted by your beauty, I kept saying “you are so beautiful”, my heart trembled, I kept saying “you are so beautiful”.   I held you tightly […]

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The DPhil Diaries: Virtual Valentine’s Day, 5th week blues and facing rejections

Image Description: Nupur Patel’s DPhil Diaries 5th week started off with a bang with the arrival of Valentine’s Day. Admittedly, on a normal year my boyfriend and I aren’t usually the grandest celebrators of the day. That’s not to say that we’re the cynical type, complaining about how ‘commercialised’ it all is (which is probably […]

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